Confused???

Thank you love for giving in with me..
i love you so much and sorry im not good in expressing it..

Its Monday, and i hate Monday sooooo much...
Because i have to go to work, but thats how life is right..
Something terrible happened today, i mean among my closest friends..
Do understand that we are friends and thats what friends do right? We care for each other so much that sometimes we cant really agree with everything that we wanna do..

Dont misunderstand of what we're trying to do or say, because friends do that, we dont want anything bad or anyone to hurt among us right..
Its not worth it to fight among ourselves because of a guy, and sometimes as friends we have to back off as long as they feel happy togather..

If only you guys will understand each other more because we've been friends for years and friendship is hard to find these days and please dont ruin that..
Do trust us because we didnt mean any harm..

I Miss Everything About You

i miss u lots.. i mean a lot.. now i realize that you play a big role in my life..
i cant stand not seeing you even a day..
but we havent met for a week now..
i feel lonely without you..
i miss your hug, laughter, kiss and most of all...
i miss you TELLING ME THAT YOU LOVE ME...
you used to do that back then..
I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU!!!

do you feel the way i do?
do you even think of me?
do you know how sad i am..
eventhough we're near but i can feel the distance between us..
we're so far away now..

i love you and i always do..

reality..

i havent write like for ages.. which mean i was too lazy to do so.. actually, ive been living a very gud life til recently.. ive broke up with him.. im not sure whether i did the right thing or was i overdo it? is it wrong for me to feel that way? am i being selfish? but do u ever understand how i feel deep down inside me?

I MISS U LOTS..

Take care lil sis~

today, my lil sis is leavin to kl to continue her study..
its kinda sad thou, coz we'l be missin her LOUD voice,
yellin at her(not in the bad way), missin her playin her RC
game N sittin in front of d computer all day, well obviously
we will be missing her a lot..

we went to the airport and then we had lunch at McD while
waiting for her to depart..
mum was like so sad bcoz she's her big baby.. haha~
i tried not to cry but i saw mum's crying so i cried too...
she cried as well.. it was SHOO SAD......

owhh well, she still had to leave..
we did took pictures, and here it goes...

dis is my mum n bro..

dis my sis n lil bro..

dis is my lil bro...

dat's her.. =.=

we love u N do take k'...
aim for the best N dun noty2 der...

Depressed..

owhh well, we've been arguein a lot these days eventhou
dat at the end we stil make it out... ughh.. i cant stand it
anymore.. owhh puhh-lease... i need help or anyone
puhh-lease i need a consultant or physchiatrist mayB?

i was listenin to mix. fm wen i heard dis song N it reminds
me of my past memories that only remain as memories..

Nobody knows by Tony Rich Project
I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls are closin' more every day
and I'm dying inside
and nobody knows it but me
like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
and I'm cryin' inside
and nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly
but you're nowhere around

chorus
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
and I just keep thinkin' 'bout the love that we had
and I'm missin' you
and nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
and I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night as if I thought
you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
and nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
but like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn
all apart
A million words couldn't say just how
I feel
A million years from now ya know
I'll be lovin' you still

chorus

Tomorrow mornin' I'm hittin' the
dusty road
gonna find you where ever, ever you
might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope
you come back to me
said when the nights are lonely...

chorus

amazed...

Mornin'.. i guess...
i juz came back from D' Bed with Hnna... yay..

i had a blast 2 day N its a gud thing for me so dat i wont
be thinkin' bout him all d way..

i went shoppin, again withh Mum N my lil sis, so we shop
til we drop again.. N i do like it... :P
after doing some shoppin, i headed back home but i didnt
feel like goin home yet, so i text Hnna...

N owhh yea.. she said yes.. N i text tutu.. but Tutu said no..
she cant go anyway far.. ughh~ but nevermind.. we'l come to u..
ahahhahah~

had dinner with Hnna at Grace Point then we headed to Tutu hse,
at 1st we plan to hang out by D pool, but then i change my mind N
we hang out at my place..

we watch The Uninvited N we Had Absolut Vodka.. yummmy~ ^^
a nice way to hang out rite? then we sent Tutu back N didnt
expect dat me N Hnna end up at D' Bed.. nice.. nice.... :P

gonna sleep now... Gudnite.. O.O

Let D' picxha do D' talking..

obviously im B..O..R..E..D..
so i'll juz let d' picture do d' talking....

sicky weakyy...

sleep..sleep..sleep.. we all need to sleep rite?
but sleeping for more than 8 hours is like.. ughh.. wat can u call it?
sleep-a-holic??? make sense which stands for overreacting sleep
dat has been done??

i didnt go to claz today becoz i was so fvckingly sick..
i mean flu is all over, shivering and fever, owh yeahh..
plz mr. fever N flu, ur NOT welcome at all!!!

but my dinner was SHOO 'yummy-licious'...
we had dim sum.. dim sum and dim sum.. ^^
N also.. Double CHeeseburger...
it made my day, much better...
wil be writting soon....

i'll die for dim-sum..

Mon...DDaayy

its monday, n its a day dat everybody hates bcoz,
weekend has end N monday starts D weekdays..
no more relaxin, no more clubs but claz all D weeks...

we FIGHT again N again N again.. Damn~ y is it hard
to juz keep a steady relationship N be happy?? we argue
N dis time its for REAL...

Tears r rollin on my cheeks while writtin dis which shows
dat im kinda weak too, i do have my soft part which i did try
my best to avoid it.. ~sob...sob~

i hated claz OB today bcoz we ol obviously hate d lecturer who's
teachin us.. to Mr. Izwan- 'Sir, alah.. didnt u said dat u'r goin to
chnge d lecturer ka?? pyah larr kmi if mcm nie??

Goin to RaZZ now to hang out for a while with my sis..
hopin dat by doin dis wil make me feel better, at least?
0.0

messy room.. :P

Swimming IN the Rain....^^

owhh well... i called it a day today.. i woke up late around 2pm and mum was like,'nah ambi nie duit cari mkn sendri, we'r goin out and the kids sda pgi ur dad's plce...' i was stil in my lalaland, and said 'bha..'.. but then, i force myself to get up coz i didnt have a gud sleep.. huh* we had a fight last night.. i mean a VERY VERY BIG fight..

my sis called and wanted to go to Water World and i was like' bha, meh larr..' rather than bein alone at home and thinks bout it over N over again.. i cant bear it anymore.. i was playing RC then suddenly my phone rang.. its was a sms N i was surprise.. he text me.. YEaa, kind of.. he was textin me like nothin happened last night?? did he forget or he is pretendin nothin happened.. .... we text N text N text but stil arguein'..


cut it short, my sis came to fetch me up N we went to Water World.. 'alang2 owhh mau pgi skg, mcm mw hujan sda nie?? antam sja larr...' we were debatin for a while.. but stil kmi pigi jga.. at 1st it was not rainin' and lets learn how to swim.. i manage to learn a bit, so gud for me.. :) suddenly it rain Heavily but we stil continue jga.. Sejukkkk gilaa, sempat lgi main hujan.. ehehe!!

*sum picxha i took after swimming in the rain....*

*i got flu and look at my pale face...

*fuggllyyy face...

*lolzz....

2.16 AM...

its 2 o'clock now, why am i stil fvcking awake?
ive been onlining for the whole day, N 'lappie' needs to rest..
urghh.. i need to sleep but my eyes won't let me..

owhh yeaa.. im going to see him 2morrow... Keningau, here i come AGAin... although d weather der is soOoo FreaKing HOT, but ill go der for YOU... we text d whole day N i stil miss u.. =.= i hav to go N sleep now...

ZzZZzzzZzzzzz......

So so so Scandalous...

i woke up early dis mornin' 4 d reason ive been fucking sick 4 almost a week, n ive been goin in and out from d hosp. n clinic...

i went 2 claz 2day n yeahh i stil own d juiciest story at d cllege.. my freaking BF came 2 my cllege last week n hell yeah he was shoutin' n lookin out 4 the guy who used 2 b my scandal.. sshhh* at F2G (a coffeshop wer ol d students hang out afta claz) n wat a coincidence bcoz most of d student wer der.. it was a complete mess.. wat a fucktard!! n kinda funny thou coz sum of them tot he was my so called-BROTHER.. ahah~ funny rite??

so til now.. every1 in cllege is stil wonderin who d hell was he lookin 4.. mystery remain* :P

*owhh well.. my new hair cut again...